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  • My Ending Days - Episode 7

    My Ending Days - Episode 7 (39:34)

    Aired on Mar 14th | 19 views | 2 participants | 1 comment | Rated +5

    I am so sad, and lonely, it is so hard to hold on to even the slightest amount of hope, since I dont know what is to be, and how or to what I can treat myself in order to find myself out of the misery that I am in.
    Health of the mind and body is not something to be tampered with, And both of mine have been tampered by stained souls, stained people and corrupted minds. it is quite a paradox this inexistence within existence. I do wish it will all be other with, either with me staying alive experiencing the good I once experienced or even better, or just be totally over with with me lieng buried in the ground. =[

  • My Ending Days - Episode 6

    My Ending Days - Episode 6 (40:15)

    Aired on Mar 14th | 12 views | 0 participants | 0 comments | Rated +2

    I am so sad, and lonely, it is so hard to hold on to even the slightest amount of hope, since I dont know what is to be, and how or to what I can treat myself in order to find myself out of the misery that I am in.
    Health of the mind and body is not something to be tampered with, And both of mine have been tampered by stained souls, stained people and corrupted minds. it is quite a paradox this inexistence within existence. I do wish it will all be other with, either with me staying alive experiencing the good I once experienced or even better, or just be totally over with with me lieng buried in the ground. =[

  • My Ending Days - Episode 5

    My Ending Days - Episode 5 (41:09)

    Aired on Mar 12th | 8 views | 0 participants | 0 comments | Rated +1

    Lies and blindness of others, lead me to be admitted to a psyciatric hospital there I got pills.. When I was set free, I realised I am totally disconnected, confused and damaged physically and mentally, I stopped taking those pills cold turkey, and smoked hashish at that point, I got more confused, more disconnected, more damaged, and ever since then I am stuck, Lost, not myself, and I see that I am a different person, I used to play the guitar differently, Now I have to make myself Play the guitar, I dont even enjoy it, i dont feel it, and my music no longer exites me, to explain what Im going through is long and tiering with no good outcome, therefor Ill sum it up to one true thing which is precise. I am totally F***ED up, and there is no bright side, and nothing good expected to happen. i am on pills again, this time the outcome will be by far much worse, and by far more damaging
    These (and by these I mean the period of time before it is decided or just happens in any sort) the last days of my life, Join me if you want to view these moments. And though it might sound harsh, let it sound out and let it be done - wish for me to meet the end of myself, as there is no point at all for me to live on, exceot maybe to suffer the iinexistence of god or any other profound exisence other than man or animal

  • My Ending Days - Episode 4

    My Ending Days - Episode 4 (40:29)

    Aired on Mar 12th | 13 views | 2 participants | 0 comments | Rated +3

    Lies and blindness of others, lead me to be admitted to a psyciatric hospital there I got pills.. When I was set free, I realised I am totally disconnected, confused and damaged physically and mentally, I stopped taking those pills cold turkey, and smoked hashish at that point, I got more confused, more disconnected, more damaged, and ever since then I am stuck, Lost, not myself, and I see that I am a different person, I used to play the guitar differently, Now I have to make myself Play the guitar, I dont even enjoy it, i dont feel it, and my music no longer exites me, to explain what Im going through is long and tiering with no good outcome, therefor Ill sum it up to one true thing which is precise. I am totally F***ED up, and there is no bright side, and nothing good expected to happen. i am on pills again, this time the outcome will be by far much worse, and by far more damaging
    These (and by these I mean the period of time before it is decided or just happens in any sort) the last days of my life, Join me if you want to view these moments. And though it might sound harsh, let it sound out and let it be done - wish for me to meet the end of myself, as there is no point at all for me to live on, exceot maybe to suffer the iinexistence of god or any other profound exisence other than man or animal

  • My Ending Days - Episode 3

    My Ending Days - Episode 3 (41:19)

    Aired on Mar 12th | 10 views | 1 participant | 0 comments | Rated +2

    Lies and blindness of others, lead me to be admitted to a psyciatric hospital there I got pills.. When I was set free, I realised I am totally disconnected, confused and damaged physically and mentally, I stopped taking those pills cold turkey, and smoked hashish at that point, I got more confused, more disconnected, more damaged, and ever since then I am stuck, Lost, not myself, and I see that I am a different person, I used to play the guitar differently, Now I have to make myself Play the guitar, I dont even enjoy it, i dont feel it, and my music no longer exites me, to explain what Im going through is long and tiering with no good outcome, therefor Ill sum it up to one true thing which is precise. I am totally F***ED up, and there is no bright side, and nothing good expected to happen. i am on pills again, this time the outcome will be by far much worse, and by far more damaging
    These (and by these I mean the period of time before it is decided or just happens in any sort) the last days of my life, Join me if you want to view these moments. And though it might sound harsh, let it sound out and let it be done - wish for me to meet the end of myself, as there is no point at all for me to live on, exceot maybe to suffer the iinexistence of god or any other profound exisence other than man or animal

  • My Ending Days - Episode 2

    My Ending Days - Episode 2 (40:42)

    Aired on Mar 12th | 8 views | 0 participants | 0 comments | Rated +1

    Lies and blindness of others, lead me to be admitted to a psyciatric hospital there I got pills.. When I was set free, I realised I am totally disconnected, confused and damaged physically and mentally, I stopped taking those pills cold turkey, and smoked hashish at that point, I got more confused, more disconnected, more damaged, and ever since then I am stuck, Lost, not myself, and I see that I am a different person, I used to play the guitar differently, Now I have to make myself Play the guitar, I dont even enjoy it, i dont feel it, and my music no longer exites me, to explain what Im going through is long and tiering with no good outcome, therefor Ill sum it up to one true thing which is precise. I am totally F***ED up, and there is no bright side, and nothing good expected to happen. i am on pills again, this time the outcome will be by far much worse, and by far more damaging
    These (and by these I mean the period of time before it is decided or just happens in any sort) the last days of my life, Join me if you want to view these moments. And though it might sound harsh, let it sound out and let it be done - wish for me to meet the end of myself, as there is no point at all for me to live on, exceot maybe to suffer the iinexistence of god or any other profound exisence other than man or animal

  • My Ending Days - Episode I

    My Ending Days - Episode I (40:58)

    Aired on Mar 12th | 13 views | 4 participants | 0 comments | Rated +1

    Lies and blindness of others, lead me to be admitted to a psyciatric hospital there I got pills.. When I was set free, I realised I am totally disconnected, confused and damaged physically and mentally, I stopped taking those pills cold turkey, and smoked hashish at that point, I got more confused, more disconnected, more damaged, and ever since then I am stuck, Lost, not myself, and I see that I am a different person, I used to play the guitar differently, Now I have to make myself Play the guitar, I dont even enjoy it, i dont feel it, and my music no longer exites me, to explain what Im going through is long and tiering with no good outcome, therefor Ill sum it up to one true thing which is precise. I am totally F***ED up, and there is no bright side, and nothing good expected to happen. i am on pills again, this time the outcome will be by far much worse, and by far more damaging
    These (and by these I mean the period of time before it is decided or just happens in any sort) the last days of my life, Join me if you want to view these moments. And though it might sound harsh, let it sound out and let it be done - wish for me to meet the end of myself, as there is no point at all for me to live on, exceot maybe to suffer the iinexistence of god or any other profound exisence other than man or animal

  • Farewell?? (read description because its almost all i have to say) - (part 2)

    Farewell?? (read description because its almost all i have to say) - (part 2) (30:26)

    Aired on Mar 9th | 10 views | 1 participant | 0 comments | Rated +1

    In about 13 hours, my destiny is going to be re-written once again, since I have to take responsibility over what has become of me, thus I might be losing my freedom for the time being, and there is also a slight chance that existance's energy will allow me to be free and treat myself as I am to be treated.
    Hopefully, the outcome of all this will be positive. as for now.. No one is to know..

  • Farewell?? (read description before entering live, its all I have to say at these moments)

    Farewell?? (read description before entering live, its all I have to say at these moments) (40:52)

    Aired on Mar 9th | 12 views | 0 participants | 0 comments | Rated +1

    In about 13 hours, my destiny is going to be re-written once again, since I have to take responsibility over what has become of me, thus I might be losing my freedom for the time being, and there is also a slight chance that existance's energy will allow me to be free and treat myself as I am to be treated.
    Hopefully, the outcome of all this will be positive. as for now.. No one is to know..

  • Taking Respo...ility (please read description before entering studio live)

    Taking Responsibility (please read description before entering studio live) (40:49)

    Aired on Mar 8th | 15 views | 1 participant | 0 comments | Rated +5

    Recently I realized in a very uncomfortable manner that I have to take responsibility in order to salvage some of my sense of self if not all and also to prevent from further mistakes and harm coming to me or others. In the next days I am going to confront myself and the truth. This will result in me being admitted to a psychiatric hospital (most definitely), and it could also be for quite a long time, this might very well be the last time you see me around here, and as for the guitar and my music, the same. Praying is an alternate to things you can actually do, and I guess, whatever the toll may be,
    ~ There is a difference between knowing the right thing and actually doing it.

  • Fighting God

    Fighting God (40:49)

    Aired on Feb 28th | 27 views | 0 participants | 1 comment | Rated +2

    Some know my story, some don't, for those who do, they are welcome to see my passion though not so felt by me any more, and watch me execute despite the struggle and more, and giving it a try though it has not been achieved by me these last months. If sould and beyoned exist, this is my try to touch them. I have much more to state out, but I guess, I am left alone to realise and ache my current being. All are welcome to hear me out notewise.

  • Fighting The Unknown

    Fighting The Unknown (40:51)

    Aired on Feb 28th | 16 views | 2 participants | 0 comments | Rated +3

    Some know my story, some don't, for those who do, they are welcome to see my passion though not so felt by me any more, and watch me execute despite the struggle and more, and giving it a try though it has not been achieved by me these last months. If sould and beyoned exist, this is my try to touch them. I have much more to state out, but I guess, I am left alone to realise and ache my current being. All are welcome to hear me out notewise.

  • Mixed Emotions, Sound and Oblivion

    Mixed Emotions, Sound and Oblivion (41:10)

    Aired on Feb 5th | 16 views | 0 participants | 0 comments | Rated +5

    Since, no one is doing a show, I decided to make one of my own containing music, clips, conversation, and of course, your are all welcome to reveal yourselves in a manner of your choice.

  • Soundmagikkk come back.., someone familiar come back!!!!!!

    Soundmagikkk come back.., someone familiar come back!!!!!! (40:59)

    Aired on Feb 3rd | 12 views | 2 participants | 0 comments | Rated +3

    come back people run a show you are all so need i dont want to go

  • Someone!?! Put on a SHOW, - I hot no mic

    Someone!?! Put on a SHOW, - I hot no mic (38:13)

    Aired on Jan 28th | 18 views | 1 participant | 0 comments | Rated +2

    Lifes a bitch and if youre lucky you die

  • Roy Stoller - Wilderness Lost

    Roy Stoller - Wilderness Lost (04:28)

    Uploaded on Dec 4th | 26 views | 0 comments | Rated +1

    The background audio is a chill-out track I made, and in the clip it self you can see and hear me playing a solo over it.
    It is the most successful solo I ever accomplished, and nowadays after everything iv'e been through which is a long story I find it very hard to accomlpish anything near. though i'd like to think the future will reveal even better accomplishments and a more happier life.

  • Acumulating

    Acumulating (11:31)

    Aired on Sep 16th | 21 views | 0 participants | 0 comments | Rated +1

    Sound

  • SoulWish FaultsAway

    SoulWish FaultsAway (15:36)

    Aired on Sep 15th | 30 views | 0 participants | 0 comments | Rated +4

    Truth = Pain
    How much pain can you stand???

  • True Sense Craftsman

    True Sense Craftsman (33:47)

    Aired on Sep 12th | 37 views | 1 participant | 0 comments | Rated +4

    Truth says it all

  • FaultsAway

    FaultsAway (40:46)

    Aired on Sep 12th | 39 views | 2 participants | 1 comment | Rated +4

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