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My Ending Days - Episode 4 (40:29)

Lies and blindness of others, lead me to be admitted to a psyciatric hospital there I got pills.. When I was set free, I realised I am totally disconnected, confused and damaged physically and mentally, I stopped taking those pills cold turkey, and smoked hashish at that point, I got more confused, more disconnected, more damaged, and ever since then I am stuck, Lost, not myself, and I see that I am a different person, I used to play the guitar differently, Now I have to make myself Play the guitar, I dont even enjoy it, i dont feel it, and my music no longer exites me, to explain what Im going through is long and tiering with no good outcome, therefor Ill sum it up to one true thing which is precise. I am totally F***ED up, and there is no bright side, and nothing good expected to happen. i am on pills again, this time the outcome will be by far much worse, and by far more damaging
These (and by these I mean the period of time before it is decided or just happens in any sort) the last days of my life, Join me if you want to view these moments. And though it might sound harsh, let it sound out and let it be done - wish for me to meet the end of myself, as there is no point at all for me to live on, exceot maybe to suffer the iinexistence of god or any other profound exisence other than man or animal

• Aired: on Mar 12th at 2:41 pm
• Views: 4 (9 while live)
• Participants: 2
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• Tags: guitar, death, suicide, choice, acceptance, fulfilment, discharge, life, inexistence

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